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Long studying days are such a torture. Started out pretty cool. Keep thinking that there's still many more days to study, so have been taking it sloooow, happily waking up at times i desire. But it's Saturday already. Sort of in a flash, but sort of not. Happy that it's going to be over soon, also starting to panic (whether studied enough). Like that there's time to prepare, but also so much time leads to time to think about all sorts of nonsense.

Sorry incoherent post. Cos that's how i am feeling now. Like too much things swimming around in my head.

Had a nightmare last night. Hahaha. You are not going to believe it. Dreamed that i was chased by giant hamsters that look like they want to bite me. Anyway the dream was a three-parter.

First part was this hamster story. I went back to B and saw saw dust on the floor, then i looked up and saw a hamster cage. Peered into it, this yellow hamster head looked back at me. It was a giant hamster. I'm kinda disgusted by large hamsters, so i backed away. Then i saw another hamster cage. There was a big grey hamster inside smiling at me. Then i went to brush my teeth (so random right), and as i was brushing, looked up and saw 6 hamsters on this self above my head. They were like lying down flat on their tummies (look so damn cute), but when they saw me looking, all jumped off. One even jumped onto my head. Then suddenly 2 giant giant hamsters started chasing me. I was running, then picked up this plastic container lid and tried to swat this hamster away from me. But the hamster turned out to be a sticker on a plastic sheet? Weird.

Second part was a bunch of people and i were talking by this staircase by a field. People were setting up tents in the field. Then suddenly we were in this classroom for a art class. Guess what were we learning?! How to make felt mascots. I was actually excited about this. Thinking why is this so cool. Then we were given some patterns to cut and start doing (i was disappointed i didn't get the patrick starfish pattern), suddenly i'm back at home happily filing the free pattern i got. I woke up thinking i really got that pattern in my file.

Third part was this dream i've had before. I was reading some book about some weird dark stuff. Suddenly i am backstage at some filming location. And i am supposed to get onto stage with a bunch of other people chanting some war/curse chant? The person told us to just mumble anything we like. Then we were all at the stage in a row, this guy beside me had to pull out some sword thing from a ball of clay (my role was this the last time i had this dream), but he couldn't.

And i am awake!

Oops, exceeded 20 minutes.

Hey ho. Finally located my camera cable. Some promised pictures.


^ The infamous temporary toilet. Heard that it's brought from house to house. Came with all that black water. Auntie tripped and fell 3 times on those steps.


^ Toilets stripped clean of everything.


^ Two new toilets one torturous week later.


^ First day of construction, ah ma sat outside the flat reading Betty and Veronica's Double Digest!


^ Ah ma and her pals at auntie's house.


^ My disgusting final painting. Help me cross fingers that i'll get a S.  I really tried, but really no talent in this thing. All i can hope for is a C so that i can get my S.


^ Last night's dinner/supper. Terrible increased 50 cents in price. But quite delicious. Been eating so much packed food i'm tired of eating. It's like the same stalls every day. Miss drinking soup (those with real ingredients, not msg soup).

Don't like sleeping alone. Feels so odd. Miss sleeping with ah ma. This construction thing better end soon.

Hands itching to sew.

And everyone, good luck with all the studying!

Banged my legs into the bed frame 4 times today. I have a huge bruise to prove it.

Construction news. One toilet is ready! Whee. Life is back to half normalcy. Some minor things to be fixed here and there. And there is painting on Sunday.

In other news, last week of school next week. :D Yay! 3 more weeks to temporal ultimate freedom. Time is going to fly. It better fly.

Had the last brush painting class on Tuesday (means no need to wake up early this Tuesday) and painted one last painting. Hahaha. The class took a group photo at the end of class with the teacher's DSLR camera. Going to miss the super relaxed class. Possibly the most relaxed class i will ever take in school. Crossing fingers for a S.

Ok, feeling pretty lazy this week.

Construction's a bitch!

Ok, so i headed for the hills from Wednesday 'til late last night. Wednesday i spent most of the day at the auntie's house (across a few streets from home B), to orientate the grandma into her new lodgings for the next few weeks. In sum, zero work done even tho there was going to be a paper due Friday.

So Thursday, i had to head over again, because the auntie had to go out. Half the day gone, after which i had to go to the library to get some research for the paper. And then got home, had dinner and marathon-ed the paper til 2:30am. Paper still not done! Only about two and a half pages. Was planning to stay up all night to finish it, but really by 2am my brain was not working anymore.

Friday got up at 7am to continue marathon-ing. Deadline was 5pm. Managed to hit 4 pages by noon. Headed to the library to email the thing. Headed to auntie's place again, because she had to go out again. Another wasted day cos there was nothing to do 'cept watch TV or nap.

Saturday morning, had breakfast at home, then headed to auntie's place again, because again she had to go out. Planned to leave early and head back to A, but then it started raining so heavily. So bb, stayed until 7:30pm, had to leave even tho it's still raining heavily. Managed to make it back to A at about 9pm.

Here comes the construction horror tales.

I wonder how all the tables are so dusty even tho they are covered by plastic sheets?! Are the dust specks so small they can permeate through the plastic? So everything is covered up, limited places to sit. Either hard plastic stools or the comfortable grand ah ma chair. But there are 3 butts and only 1 grand ah ma chair. Having to wear slippers at home feels like i'm living in hall. Gahhh. Somehow feel that everything is dirty.

The two toilets have been knocked out completely and i see this temporary toilet in the middle of the kitchen. A very primitive kind of toilet, the squat kind with no flush. So after your business you had to pour water in it to "flush". We heard from a neighbour that the thing doesn't flush down bulky things, so, only for peeing. Then there is a single shower head right on top of the squat. I wonder how people can shower in there? Wouldn't water from the squat splash out? It's so so small. Will have photos later, now i don't know where is the camera cable. There is only one water tap in the house and we can't really use it because the pipes are leaky and will affect this cement thing on the floor. I am not too clear about the connections, i just know we can't really use water. Since there is not water, had to go down to the temporary toilets downstairs. Had to go brush my teeth there last night. Since there are no sinks, went to the ONE shower stall to brush. Floor is wet and muddy. Didn't dare use the toilets. So i haven't gone to the toilet from 8pm last night.

This morning, the auntie went down to brush her teeth and came back reporting that someone/something had done the big one in the shower stall. She said she smelled something bad even before she pushed open the door. So disgusting. Really stupid irresponsible people in the world. So i had to use the tap in the house to brush my teeth. SO MUCH BETTER. I refuse to go downstairs. Had to pee and move the bowels in the morning, so i had to choice but to go downstairs. Armed myself with half a roll of toilet roll before heading down. They don't have loo paper in those stalls so you have to bring your own. Anyway, the neighbour saw me and asked if i wanted to use their toilet. But then, aiyoh, embarrassing right, to stink up people's toilets. So i made it quick. Dash in, dash out.

As for sleep, they dismantled the bed i used to sleep in, so there is only one double decker in the house and 3 bodies. One slept in the lower bunk, the other refused to sleep on the upper deck, and instead chose to sleep on the ah ma chair, so i took the upper bunk. Mattress a bit dusty, i kept sneezing non-stop.

We heard from my uncle that one of the workers tried to steal my auntie's ez-link card (which she dropped on the floor). Caught red handed by him and even denied, saying "i want to return to auntie". Uncle said he looked shifty and kept looking over his shoulders. Auntie was saying how lazy the workers were. They refused to help you mop and sweep the floor (they are required to), until you bribe them with food. That day she asked one of the guys to help her sweep the floor cos it they haven't swept for 2 days, and he kinda ignored her and looked unhappy. After that, she took out 2 apples for him and his friend, then they smiled and went to sweep the floor. We heard the same thing from our neighbour. There was some problem with their bathroom tiles and he asked the workers to go in and fix it, again they were unhappy. Then the neighbour took out some jellies (leftovers from Deepavali he said) for them, and they happily went to help him. Just yesterday, my auntie bought some crackers and left it on the table. Then one of them asked her if she can let him have it. Which my auntie did. She said "see they like quite poor thing". And they keep asking for water. My mom's been buying bottled water by the dozens. On one hand they seem quite poor thing, but on the other hand they try to steal stuff, so i don't know what to make of them.

The neighbours have really been very helpful during the construction. They kept offering tips and stuff. Cos we are the last house on the floor to have the construction.

And we have been eating tapao-ed food for almost a week.

If it were the holidays i would gladly stay on my hill, but with school, you have so many things to do. Pay per use internet rates are so unaffordable. So there you have it. Going to be 1.5 more weeks of hell.

At the library.

Good news today! Internship interview apparently did not go as bad as i expected. :D Good news from Nell also.

All round good news for everyone. :D :D

Got to hand in a paper draft tomorrow, word count as of now, 231. Good luck to me.

Went for an interview today. Think i sucked at it! Hahaha. Kinda blanked out for a while while the interviewer was telling me some things about programming. After that she asked me if i had any questions and i just had nothing to ask because i wasn't really paying attention. Don't know what is wrong with me. Might be the weather. The office is on a hill, and you have to climb up steps of death (certainly rivals the one in school) to reach the area. I was panting and perspiring slightly more than halfway through and had to stop to catch my breath. Speaks volumes about my level of fitness. When i made it to level ground i realised their office was on the third level; no lift. Up six more flights of stairs. Didn't go straight in when i got to the office. Had to stand outside to cool down, wipe dry, comb hair and catch my breath. If i do get the internship there, it could be a good thing, i will have extremely toned legs after 6 months. And maybe lose my pot belly. Free StairMaster. Anyway, think i did pretty badly at the interview. Blabs. And, a secret of mine got exposed accidentally. Tsk me.

So, construction is underway! Cupboards in the room and kitchen were torn out.


^ Everything has to be covered up.


^ Disgusting kitchen after the cabinets were removed. Ewww.


^ More cover ups.


^ Got something in the mail today! :D Happy end to a so-so day.

Was awakened this morning by music blasting from a funeral downstairs. It was 7 plus and i was trying to get as much rest as i could. Hmm, pretty inconsiderate of them. At first i thought it was the qigong aunties, but then i woke up and looked out the window...

During construction time, i will be away at another hill, my own B, and cut off from the rest of the world. Might be a good thing, have a paper due on Friday and 0 words written as of today.

Stupid me had ice cream for breakfast and now my tummy is paying for it. Should have known that the jam factory does not like ice cream on it's premises. Should have known, but i had one last night for supper and all was fine. Now i know.

DYK, my chinese brush painting skills have gotten up a notch! My first one was a C, then subsequently, i had C+s and my last two paintings have gone up one level. To C++. Maybe i'll move up another level to C+++ with my grapes painting this week. Just been informed that we have to produce a final painting (anything you want) on the last day of class and write an essay on experiences. Already S/U-ed the thing.

^ Orchids and chickens. Chickens eat bugs.


^ Fish. The carp kind and the red head goldfish with other fish and seaweed.

Been up to nothing this week. Pretty uneventful except i found out that someone ate my stuff and made me very angry. Other than that, blah week. Thursday i finally finished my marathon of Moonlight Resonance. So satisfying. The more evil the villain, the more satisfying the happy ending. Hahaha. Much as i don't believe in happy endings, i love to see them. One can dream... Friday i caught up with some shows, then went out a bit. Saturday i woke up early, then went back to bed, then started crafting in the evening. This is the life!


^ Cute look chicken soup. Looks good only.


^ My study buddy. Hates science too.


^ I made wanton udon soup! Hahaha. I ate wanton for three days. Made too many.


^ The mess that is my space. I snack, i drink, i craft at my computer table. And also occasionally try doing readings as i wait for things to load.

Hate the upgrading/renovations thing. The entire place is in a mess. Things are strewn all over the place. It only took me 10 minutes to clear out my stuff though. Haha. Maybe i'm so used to shuttling between places. My things are always in a ready-to-go state. Just collect and put in carrier bags and i'm ready to go. Should the building collapse, i already know what is important to grab and run. Hahaha. Touch wood. Not exactly sure if i am moving back to B during the construction. On a hill, away from civilisation (internet). Hmmm.

I was about to prepare my bag and clothes for tomorrow when i realised there's no school tomorrow. Happy thoughts. Feeling pretty relaxed now, even though i haven't done a single piece of school work. Holidays do that to people.

Taking a little break from studying for forensics mid-term. I have moved to the bed to study because i feel that my back has to lean on a wall. The subject matters are too spooky for me. I still feel that the biology bits are so much easier to understand than the chemistry and physics bit. Biology is like clear cut.


^ Two kinds of masks. The stupid paste mask (as you can see, the brows are covered) i happily took a photo of before i found out how painful it was. And then the other day i tried the paper mask. In case you are wondering why i have a sudden interest in facial masks, i do not. These just happened to be given to me for free.


^ Shapes! :D Still think that the fetta and herb one is the best.


^ GIANT PIGLET at hing man's house. So damn cute la. I was happily hugging it until i realise all the dust got stuck on my clothes. If i ever go to HK, i want to lug a giant piglet back home!


^ East Ocean green tea. So satisfying!


^ The My Melody i made was so cute i was tempted to keep it for myself. This was the bulk order. All 24 pieces of them. Buyer complained said that a pair of the sugar bunnies don't look like the real one, so she didn't want them. I still sent them over. What can i do with those 2 pieces anyway. I have no interest in Sanrio stuff. After this bulk order experience, NO MORE! I shall limit my custom order to 10 pieces maximum, unless the other party is willing to wait. Intensive sewing is just too taxing. The whole term break was burned up making these felts. No time to enjoy and do any other thing at all.


^ Mash from PP's. The large one compared to the one from KFC is so much more worth it. 3 bucks for one big portion. The sauce is so much better and the mash has potato bits in it. KFC mash is such a ripoff. WASSANT!


^ My own creation. Tofu, fresh shiitake and egg. 3 of my favourite foods in one hot tub.

Short update.

Still toiling away at the felts thingy. THURSDAY already, 0 school stuff touched. Channel your well wishes into helping me finish those felt things by today.

People are going to Ikea on Saturday to shop for new furniture for the house, but i cannot go! Argh.

I finally satisfied my craving for green tea mooncakes. Didn't realise i missed those yummy egg yolks till i had two mini snowskins in a row. They make for good afternoon tea snacks.

Construction going on. Noise and dust pollution. Today i felt the worse of it. Whole day pounding and drilling away. When you walk into the room closest to where the works are, the floor is coated with a thick layer of dust. Really, there's no point sweeping, because 10 minutes after sweeping, a fresh coat settles, and it's dusty again. And the noise... We have to turn the TV way up to hear anything at all. And it's no point trying to hold any conversation, because you have to shout, and it's just too tiring.

I don't know what's gotten into me this semester. Totally not motivated at all. I have not touched anything school related since last Tuesday. My readings are all not done, and there's a mid-term to study for (i'm 2 lectures behind), and a project. So many things.

The bulk order is killing me, i've been making them since Wednesday, and i've only got 9 (i'm supposed to make 26) now. But i got all the pieces cut out, so hopefully i can get everything ready by tomorrow, and then try and do some school stuff. I don't think i'll take on any more bulk orders in the near future. All the hard work is killing my interest. I like to do things slow. Fast work makes ugly pieces.

Last week i tried on this face mask, the paste kind, for the first time. Didn't expect it to hurt like hell. Anyway rookie mistake, i didn't realise that i shouldn't get that muck on my eyebrows. When it came time to peel the thing off, i thought my brows were going to all come out, and i have to tattoo on new eyebrows. It didn't, but really i felt i am tearing off my own skin. Why would anyone subject themselves to such pain! Those paper masks are so much more convenient.

Hate that school is kicking my ass. Still.

I feel like i'm on term break already. So carefree (for the mo), even though i'm behind in quite a bit of readings, and i have to do some editing on my first term paper of the semester. And i have to go through the forensics online lecture. Seems like quite a bit of work, but i feel like i've got nothing to do.

I doubt i can do the lectures tomorrow because electricity's going to be cut off for half a day (upgrading works). Anyway, I am going to have to work for forensics after all. At first i thought since i'm S/U-ing it, don't have to spend too much effort on it. Since getting a C is sufficient. Haha. Then now, guess i'll have a better chance with forensics than that silly chinese brush painting. GOT ANOTHER C! Five weeks, five Cs. Another C coming back next week i bet. At least with forensics, you can study for it. ART IS SO SUBJECTIVE. It should be that grading is based on effort together with end product, not just what looks nice to the marker. I was complaining (jokingly in jest) to ah ma, about getting another C, and she said "ler kua liao sui, pat lang kua liao bo sui!" And she asked me why i kept drawing grass. Another thing, that girl who goes for lessons even though she's not registered, is now registered! Can't help but feel like it's really unfair. Like, what, you shamelessly keep insisting on going for classes means you can get your way?! It bugs.

Feel like going to the library tomorrow. Haven't read a book for two weeks. My eyes are getting itchy. Have i mentioned i love the smell of Dettol. I find it smells so fresh and clean. And i also love the smell of Attack detergent. Smells so sweet.

Anyway exciting things happened this week! I got a custom consignment for 80 felt plushies! Which i had to refuse, because i am not a factory. These things take a lot of time and she wanted them by the 26th, which means i would have to have them done by this Saturday. Mission impossible. But still i'm glad that someone is willing to buy so many of my felts. It's good to know someone wants to buy them, even though the sale's not gone through. I did this other sale though. 8 pieces, and i sewed till 2am Tuesday morning, and was tired like anything in class later. But, good news is that woman wants to buy more custom felts (sanrio characters; i felt childish printing their pictures in the school computer lab) from me. Going to make like 3 samples for her in the weekend. Hoping for good news. Wish i can make plushies full time. Hee.

Discovered on Tuesday that the NIE canteen sells perfect breakfast at an amazing price! 2 slices of kaya bread toasted just the way i like them (slightly crispy on the outside but the bread's still very soft) with 2 nicely cooked half-boiled eggs and a mug of milk tea. At a low low price of $1.50. Saved me from embarrassing stomach growling in painting class.

My ah ma's skin is becoming so thin they tear easily. I'm scared for her. And her feet are swollen all of a sudden. :( Blabs.

Time seem to be flying. Week cinco already. Last weekend, totally did not do any readings, and now i have a ton of readings piled up. And i have to get started on my paper (waited too long and lost the link, ugh), and also get started on this stupid interview thing. But i seem to have so many other things to do. Glad to have a 2 day week. Will try to get things done asap and slack during the weekends. Anyway, quickie post.

Got back 2 more paintings. Surprise surprise, Cs again.


^ I thought my Chrysanthemums were not bad. But guess not. And, i like my red blossoms. I know both the stems suck. Haha. I hate drawing the stems, they always spoil the painting. This drawing thing, you have to be careful all the time because one wrong move, the entire thing's ruined and you have to start over. And then you might not do some parts as nice as the ruined one. Class is still the long standing period, disoriented teacher, bugger who is still attending class and that videographer. Overheard the admin person asking the prof if there are future painters in the class, and he said probably one or two. Tsk.


^ Vanilla soda Tohato. Cute packaging, so-so tasting.


^ These were the catalyst of my sore throat.

^ Some stuff i've been working on. Got some new ideas, but haven't had the chance to try them out yet.

^ Delicious ramen from Dan's birthday treat. Loved the egg! Bowl of ramen is HUGE and so much char siew. Pretty good gyozas.


^ Watched the forensics online lecture the other day. That's me lying on the bed with piglet, snacking on marshmallows, occasionally taking notes. The speaker was handy to have. If all lectures were like this, think about how environmentally friendly this will be? People don't have to travel, saving money and there will be less pollution, less fuel used. So many benefits.


^ Nell's Hammie. I didn't know sunflower seeds were bad for hamsters until yesterday. Hope poor Ham's eyes get better soon.

I have this annoying blocked nose which is inhibiting my enjoying of food! Argh. Half the time i can't taste anything. Mark your calendars for 3 Oct, mooncake fest. Hee.

Went to the doc's. The throat got progressively worse throughout the day. So i took a bus all the way down to my usual doc only to see that it is closed! They must have gone for their family holiday. Grrrr. So anyway, since i'm already at Bishan, went to another doc. I think i spent about 10 minutes in that place. Fast, no fuss. Went in, said i have a sore throat, was asked if i have fever, flu, cough or sore muscles, answered no to all those, doc told me i should wish i have H1N1 (he said then i will be immune from it next time), he pretended to hear my heartbeat (seriously! he was doing it so quick, what is there to hear?), asked if i needed a MC, and then i was out.

I wish the 7th month will be over soon. All that smoke is making my eyes watery and irritating my eyes. And, the wind is blowing all the burnt papers ashes into my house. And it means that mooncake fest is drawing near. GREEN TEA SNOW SKIN!

This week's a three day week. Went for forensics guest lecture yesterday. AM NOT GOING TO ONE ANYMORE. Because of personal sanity issues. I really really tip my hat off to all the forensics people. Day in day out they have to deal with this kind of heart wrenching/gut tightening situations. Very graphic indeed. I thought my personal threshold was pretty high, after all i watch GA, and they have some pretty gruesome scenes. Like disfigured Ava, the guy with no face, the cement guy, the saw-off-his-own-leg guy, the guy whose artery or vein burst open and all the blood gushed out... And also PD, a lot of strange deaths and thus disfigured corpses. Anway, i guess not. Will definitely skip that The Ring movie screening. I will not go crazy or develop some psychological condition because of school. Totally not worth it.

Yes, i am a wuss. I hate watching or coming into contact with any horror stuff. I have an irritatingly over imaginative mind at night. Watched a couple of chinese zombies as a kid, and even with those laughable make-up (even as a kid, i could tell that those were very very lousy make-up), i was scared. Not proud of it, but i am. I read a story off Singapore Ghost Stories or something when i was in primary school and till date i still remember it. It's like super glued to my memory. And i watched this movie They, sometime back, also pretty spooked by it. I hate looking into the mirror at night. I really wonder why some people like to scare themselves. Of course there are people that are not a least bit scared of this kind of things, but there are those who seek it even thought they are easily spooked. I rather be all rainbows and sweets and stuff.

Luckily did not have nightmares yesterday. Still able to eat and sleep very. Slept very well indeed. woke up at 12:44pm. :D Was reluctant to get up because of my throat. SORE THROAT. :( Ran out of ppg yesterday. Should not have eaten the remaining biscuits from the fridge and that super rich chocolate biscuit. ARGH. I forgot how painful sore throats are.

We have some new neighbours at the last apartment of the row. Haven't seen them around. Curious to peep into their house since the door is always open, but guess better not. Would seem rude eh.

Have some work to do. Not going to touch them until my throat gets better. Am lazy to go to the doctor's. And i want to add new things to my shop, photocopy some more patterns, i have some new ideas as well. Also, am trying to watch How I Met Your Mother. Haha. Pretty good show. Seems like a busy weekend (my weekends start on Wednesdays).

ARGH! I can't find this piece of paper that i've photocopied. It took me ages to borrow the book and i've already returned it. I made a point of double checking the pages after i got them back from the photocopy person. Because they always, always make mistakes with the pages. I remember seeing the page. OMG. WHERE THE HELL IS IT?

I've discovered the books of Christopher Moore. Very funny. Like his style.

How can time pass by so fast? Other people squander money, i squander time. At least you could earn back the money. Time can never be earned back. Which is the worse crime?

Got up at 12pm, decided to paint my nails today. Painted it till 11pm. Other than painting nails, i did nothing (so much for school). I so suck at painting nails. One day, i'm going to attend some dodgy course and get a cert in painting nails. One day, i'm going to learn to drive. One day, i'll going to open a shop selling handcrafted stuff, candy in jars, flowers, tea and helping people paint nails. One day.



^ From where else! I still think those Saint Cinnamon's (from long long ago, i remember having them for breakfast before band practices in primary school, so precious, because they are a tad expensive, cannot afford to eat them often) are much nicer. The first time i baked these, over-baked them. Turned out burnt. The second time i ate them straight from the freezer (after thawing of course!). Tasted much better.



^ Those delicious dim sum i was raving about. 6 x 2 = 12.


^ Love getting parcels.


^ Got C for the first assignment. Luckily i didn't hand in the fish. He commented they were fat while making rounds. Totally did not expect that the bamboos or what not would be graded. It was like the introductory class. Everyone was happily having fun and laughing at their ugly bamboos and fish.


^ Sample example for us to follow. See the difference! To be fair to us, we had like what, an hour of practice? While the teacher had obviously been doing it for ages. I like my fat fish. They look so full and happy.


^ Another half-hearted attempt at this week's class drawing blossoms. I handed in my first attempt. This was the 3rd i think. They became worse the more i practiced. I was walking back and forth in class getting water and stuff when i saw this girl happily dabbing at her blossoms. Her blossom stem was huge. And she kept like dabbing at them. I wonder if she ever realised that her stem was way to big. Then i walked passed her again while she was doing her second piece, and the stem got even bigger.


^ We are supposed to write our names on our works, so the teacher wrote a sample for us in different styles. The class is also like a chinese culture class. Before the drawing demo (where we have to stand for ages and ages while the teacher happily and very slowly draws sitting down), we would get some lecture on stuff like classical teachings of scholars, or where the stones or ink or something are found in parts of China. I don't think anyone pays attention. I was happily the first one to rush back to my seat this week after the drawing demo.

Anyway, i just don't understand why Andy Lau doesn't want to admit his relationship with his girlfriend. He's like what, 47 now, and already so successful. As if people will not like him just because he is married?! Celebs are like getting married, having babies, getting divorced, left, right and centre and no one even gives a damn. Don't know if i should say poor girlfriend, or stupid girlfriend.

Recently i've received invitation to some gathering from people i haven't heard about for like 10 over years (the wonders of facebook). It was nice knowing that people still remember each other. On the other hand i can't help feeling cynical about this whole thing. I don't think everyone even knows everyone well (or that they even existed). If everyone were really close, we would have kept contact all these time. So what is with this enthusiasm about the gathering? Conversations are going to be so predictable. "Very long never see you!" "Hey, what you doing now!" "We must meet up soon!" That's about it? I bet people won't even remember most of the things they asked out of politeness. Somehow it feels so fake, all these. Maybe people are just really genuine and i'm a heartless unsociable bitch. But facebook is enough contact for me.

It's Friday! Haven't done a single thing except unpacked my bag. Didn't want mold on my water bottle. I really feel like i'm still on holiday. It's like i cannot adjust myself back into the school mode.

Saying "I WANT" is so easy. I want so many things.

Are the blood gates making me weepy? It's like all the blood's drained away from my brain. I move slow for fear of upsetting the delicate balance.

Was feeling weepy watching that HK drama. So... unlike me. Was i always like that? I didn't seem to notice before.